I don't mean to suck at blogging...

Really, I don't.

But somehow... and I am still unraveling how... I have hit a giant rut.  A snag.  A bear trap.

So bear with me.   Don't leave.  I will be back.  I promise.

Vacation Post Due

I have been an AWFUL blogger.

Part of it is because I have been working full time, doing advocacy work at the Capitol, preparing for the Highlight It Up Blue for Autism fundraiser/awareness event, and taking care of J-man and Big Daddy.  But hey... I did skip out on the seminar at J-man's program entitled "Parental Burnout - what you need to know".  I am working toward being the poster child for parental burnout... I am not sure I need to go to a seminar on it.

The other reason is that J-man and I flew down to Arizona to visit my parents.  It was a long weekend, and there is lots to talk about, and unfortunately... because of the above events this past month... my brain cannot possibly convey the terrible wonderfulness of our trip right now.  So that will have to wait.  Maybe this weekend I can write something coherent... if I am not in a stress-induced coma.

In the meantime, two photos.  One of the oh-so-awesome J-man sporting some serious shades...

... And the next of me, sporting my new blue highlights.  I just want you to know that I hate pictures of myself, but I am sharing it here because of YOU.  I am just that giving.

I promise much more entertaining blogposts in the near future.  

School Daze

And so it begins...

My yin and yang.  My highs and lows.  My dream and nightmare.  All this and more has resulted from a single, crazy, amazing event.

J-man got into the "dream" charter school.  For Kindergarten.  This fall.  THIS FALL!  

*sob*

Those are tears of joy and dread, people.  Of hope and doubt.  Of confidence and fear.

I am so excited, confused, conflicted, excited... oh wait, I said that already...  well, there you go.  I am a whirl of mixed up emotions.

Of course, my first mistake (or act of utter genius) is that I applied to have J-man enrolled at the "dream" school to begin with.  You see, we didn't plan on enrolling him in Kindergarten this year.  The plan was to keep him out until he was six.  Give him time to mature, etc etc.  And I still think that is a really, really good plan.  A reallllllllly good plan.

But....  well... for some crazy reason I thought that it couldn't hurt to apply to go to the "dream" school.  I knew the odds were stacked against us.  There were only a very small number of empty slots (like, 20), and well over 100 applications.  So, you know... the odds of J-man getting in were very small and....

Here we are.

Will he be ready?  Welcomed?  Able to perform in a regular classroom?  How much support will he need?  Can they provide it?  Is this school truly as wonderful as everyone says?

Am I making a giant-ass mistake by even trying this????

And yet, as I waiver to and fro, I see things like this bus...

J-man cut out the bus, windows, and tires independently.  And glued them on independently.  And those were things he couldn't do a month ago.  So maybe I am worrying needlessly?  Maybe he can do it??

Stay tuned.  The drama is just beginning.